Last week of school, finally after a long semester i can look forward to a well deserved break. However, still the little problem of my assignments i need to hand up. It should be no problem though, although i'm going to fall short of my aims this semester..

Nari is finally leaving Perth, its been nice having her around, with all her usual suspects of coz. Finally something that brightened up my days here in Perth, but now that she's going, i can finally get back to my work good and proper..heh.

The girls of broadway are losing it, they're really nuts, haha laughing at almost everything. It is infectious laughter, but its totally senseless..haha..I think it must be the weather.

Going to watch netball game tom, go mish! ahh..erm..and watch THE DAY AFTER TOM. Which looked pretty good actually, I won't be paying for this movie myself for specific reasons.

Going to sleep now, tired as hell. SLept the day away yet still so tired. It must be the weather.

chris

TODAY I WATCHED THE EXCESSIVELY CHICK FLICK MOVIE "HONEY"

Watched it on dvd and i have to admit it wasn't as bad as i thot it would be..haha
It's another day of reflection for me..i was just wondering on how people like to use the "escapist theology". I wonder if running away from something can really solve the problem. Obviously, 99.9% of the ppl are going to say no..obviously it doesn't.

But how many times have we left something alone, hoping it would get better when it needs your intervention. How many times have u liked someone, but afraid to tell that person, you walk away from everything. How many things you know are going to go wrong but you simply refuse to acknowledge......I hope that got you thinking.

Actually, there is a time to be an escapist, because simply confronting the problem might blow it out of proportion. But how we apply this discretion depends on very little situation that comes our way.

Another thing that crossed my mind is how people politics really screw with your mind. Its something everyone will want to avoid. Yet little do everyone know, once they make a comment about something which isn't their business, politics will arise.

I offer my solution to this problem..and i hope its a good one..ahem..ok here goes..

<strong>Only people you care for can affect you in life, because you have concern for them and they genuinely mean something to you. People who are not close to you, should not be able to affect you or upset you..even if they make bad remarks about you. If you take into account every little thing someone says about you, you're really in for a miserable life. Let those who judge, be judged. At the same time, try to be more conservative in your own judgements, forgive alittle and the whole world will be a better placeChris

WHAT A ONE SIDED CHAMPIONS LEAGUE FINAL

Porto beat Monaco 3-0, once again, mishi was wrong with her prediction. Eh girl, you must watch soccer as long as I have to make proper predictions..hur hur. Clumsy lass dropped chilli mussels on her pants. As a spectator, the match was nice to watch, fast paced and plenty of chances.

Missed class the next morning. Slept the afternoon away with work waiting for me, terrible terrible. Met chels,nar and eelis later in the evening. OK and its a record, CRX can fit 4 ppl! Totally amazing! Unfortunately, Nari was sitting on my handbrake and i couldn't engage second gear properly..so i changed from first to fourth twice..haha.

In the end, couldn't find a place to watch movies so ended up at oriels AGAIN!! Had a beer and some fries, later joined by arthur and stella. Later on sent eelis home and had a look at her place, alil small but pretty good location.

I MUST MOVE EVENTUALLY..but i'm piss ass lazy lah..moving is such a hassle.

Thank god going home to s'pore soon and there's euro 2004 to look forward to. I'm guessing ITALY will win it. HOLLAND will make the semis...and poor old ENGLAND will be KOed at the quater-finals.

HUR HUR..mish..dare to bet anot.

chris/fantasizer

COM CRASHED!!

Computer is down again, I think its a virus, which makes it even more sad cause all i've been doing is chatting,surfing and doing work. I didn't even touch the kazaa. Anyway, with my com down, i've actually had renewed incentive to do my work and i've made fantastic progress, hur hur.

Since Narisa is here in Perth, have been doing my assignments asap so i'm free to bring her around. SHe's actually pretty good company if she could stop scandalising me. And if u read her blog she claimed i paid the money to the damn peepshow, which is true. HOWEVER, she was the one suggested going in!!!! So how can she blame me????She even pressed my face against the glass of the booth!.......crazy woman.

2 more main assignments to go! hurry hurry hurry...

chris/fantasizer

YESTERDAY

picked Narisa up from the airport, despite getting on one hour of sleep, she was pretty excited, even though it's only Perth. Brought her back to chels/mish/ja's place. Her arrival was supposed to be a surprise, but no one seem to be surprised. Ok..partly due to the fact that jason and jeremy spoilt part of it..and nari's parents told the rest she would be coming in on fri..haha..parents..

Ate dinner at oriels, it was ok, wasn't fantastic..I would've said it was fantastic if it cost half the price.

Later went back and then proceeded to supper, where the incident of the day happened. Was fooling ard in front of my fren's car. And she wanted to scare me by starting the engine..but she started the engine the car lurched forward and hit me in the knee caps. Sobz..

Maybe she wasn't happy with me from the beginning, i'm not sure..sighz
why why why..

chris/fantasizer

TIRING DAY

Unbelievably, after a whole night of frustrating filming, i managed to wake up for class today, at 8.30! Simply amazing, i was so proud of myself. I jus realised that my cash is running out..and i really really need to budget myself. Majority of my cash has been going to petrol and phone top ups, i got to stop opening my vtec, esp when there is no hurry. Just afew blowing it afew times in second and third gear, my needle decended considerably.

Soon the peeps in perth will be joined by yet another vistor! Haha..looks like perth is a congregation for s'poreans. The weather is turning abit too cold for my liking. I have to wear a shirt to sleep now and i have to turn on my heater.

Recently been very inspired to go to the gym, after watching the movie troy. Though i might have abit of problems growing the facial hair. Plan to work out my upper body equally, so at least i can be proportionate. Otherwise i'd end up looking like a chicken..or jeremy lai

chris/fantasizer

TROY

Was an excellent movie, it was for the guys, and with brad pitt, orlando bloom and eric bana, it was for the girls too. Was thinking to myself, sighz, was it worth it? Just a woman and a whole nation had to go to war. Orlando bloom is a horny bugger la...
With two girl squealing at the sight of half naked men the whole movie (identities withheld), i couldn't help laughing the whole movie.

One of the girls (identity still withheld),who is usually very prim, proper and decent, remarked "Wah, I wonder what Jennifer Aniston is getting every night. If it was me, it would be morning, afternoon and night!" girls...hahaha..the other girl also cannot take it..probably having funny ideas in her head also

I have filming tom, sucks..its gonna be a long long day..and i really shd catch some shut eye..but helen of troy is..wah..how to sleep man..haha

I bet jeremy lai went straight to the gym after watching this show....that clown..

chris/fantasizer

I like your pants around your feet
I like the dirt thats on your knees
I like the way you still say please
while you're still looking up at me
You're my favourite damn disease

I know who you are, it wasn't that hard
JUST FIGURED YOU OUT.


One day, when i stop running, i hope I've found what i'm looking for. The demons of the past will not be on my heels. A spark in my eye triggers me to scream, clasping my temples with my palms, i crumble to my knees. Thunder echos in the distance, the skys darken over the horizon. I beat the ground with my fists, I rise to my feet and i stand up to the deafening winds. A rain drop hits my face, cold causes me to crumble again. I look up and see my demons circulate around the winds that sweep over my head. It hurts, my body is limp, but when the pain reaches its zenith, i slowly become numb. I lie on my back, my life slowly easing out of my body. I close my eyes, darkness reigns again...

A true struggle against a wave of negativity, the people who won't let me forget my past will suffer my fate. I break these chains of bondage and i will overcome, i will not give up.

I am who I am, I have done what i have done, i have gone where i have gone, I will regret my regrets. But i will live my life and survive because i know what i am.

IMPERFECT

NEWCASTLE QUALIFY FOR UEFA CUP

Pretty good result for newcastle, they drew 1-1 away to liverpool. Although they fell short of the champions league, which was a minor disappointment, it wasn't so bad considering the injury problems they've had.

Spent the day slacking at home, i did a miniscule amount of work. Heh. The rest of the semester is going to be bz bz bz...

Mood was spoiled by something very irritating today. But i guess people are very liberal with their judgements nowadays..even from frens to frens. I think i'm getting used to it though.

In one more month i will be home, the reunion of me, jeremy,jason, jinyuan and yixiong will be complete. Hur hur..the good old times again..
Funny how we can make more and more friends but the best friends will always be THAT original group.

Oooh can't wait to go back and see them, esp jeremy. Cause if jeremy isn't in the group, we have no one to make fun of..

chris/fantasizer

SUN CONCERT

Well, despite some apprehension, actually went to the Sun concert, which was really rather good. Was a nice experience, thanx mish for asking me along. Hmm..its been awhile since i've been away from church and all the holy activities. So much so that i've become abit uncomfortable with the whole thing. I should start making up for lost time and go back to church someday, although i don't know when.

Even my blur-queen of a neighbour melissa goh (uwa) asked me to go to mass, and i guess i will, someday. haha.

Spent 4 years in a charismatic youth grp and it was a good four years, no regrets. Admittedly, u do get a feeling of peace and serenity within but i'm not going to take the big step of going back into it so soon. Its been at least 3 years since i've prayed over someone..haha i think i'm the one that needs praying over.

I know God won't forsake me, he will always be there for me, it's just whether i want to go back to him.....

Lord give me strength

chris/fantasizer

I ALWAYS WONDER..

1)that some of my friends if i will know them ten years from now.

2)if my life would have so much laughter if jeremy lai didn't exist.

3)how my future wife would look like

4)how love works

5)how time changes everything

6)how ppl who have nothing can be happy, but how ppl who have everything can't.

7)how does someone fight for something he doesn't believe it

8)how much life would be different if i chose a different path

9)where my heart lies

10)how to live my life if everything is destined, or do we create our own destiny

BIG DAY TOM!

I have a major presentation due tom, its a big big one, with 3 of my other groupmates. I feel confident this time. (last presentation was a disaster). Okok, lets get off the mind numbingly boring academic topic.

Went for class this morning, actually understood what was going on, even though only got like 2 hours of sleep, amazing.Came home and slept all the way until dinner time. I'm still trying to correct my sleep cycle but i can't resist sleeping in the afternoon in cold weather.

Spent the rest of the day thinking of money raising schemes. I just realised there are plenty of ways, catch is, they're all illegal. Well, as the old saying in the army goes " Do what you want, just don't get caught."

My assholes of housemates, who watch porn on my dvd player in the living room, decided in ALL THEIR WISDOM, to put the porn cds in my rented DVD covers. (obviously i didn't know). SO when i went to return the DVDs, the counter lady took out the porn and handed it back to me and said " Sir, i believe this is yours (her expression not changing one bit). It was a nightmare...told my housemates about it, they decided it was funny..so i laughed along with them

"HUR....Hur....hur.....hur..hur..." right.

chris/fantasizer

I THINK I LIKE NETBALL

Ok, today, seng arrived in S'pore, last minute chelsea asked me to pick him up. Brought him back to weikang's place, den proceeded to chelsea's place for dinner (sort of to welcome him). Den some of us proceeded to support Mishi at her Netball game.

Upon arrival, hmm..i mean, mishi is still the chioest of the lot lah, but her team members weren't bad lohz (haha right anot mishi), yah anyway was a good game, maybe alil messy at times. Not that it mattered, i liked watching the game..haha.

After that, proceeded back to her place, chit chat with the whole lot..den went home..and here i am now..

was a pretty good day, haha..

bleah

JA'S bday

Well it was the 20th bday of jacinta, no stripper until 21...damn. Haha Woke up damn late, felt damn rested. Proceeded to Chel's place and later to that dinner place..hmm..forgot the name..at hamden one lah..

I think Ja was surprised because she called all of us evil. Haha..women, buai tahan them sometimes. Okok shall stop there..sexist remarks will get me murdered. Dinner was good, portion abit too small but still good. Proceeded back to Ja's place..There was Weikang, Lek, Eelis, chels, Ja, Mishi (knocked out soon after), sacha..we den cut the cake/pudding and continued with our gossip session.

Topics that came up during this gossip cannot be mentioned for many reasons.Heh..

Nite everyone

Chris/fantasizer

New car just arrived in S'pore, gosh, can't wait to fly back and try it out. It's been awhile since i've driven an auto car, hopefully i don't get too over-confident. Missed soccer totally this weekend, feeling alil shitty over it. Spent the day just slacking at home, doing alil bit of work..although not much.

It's getting alil cold here, i was wondering if i wore gloves during winter, would anybody call me a sissy? haha..Need to go out and get alil more exercise man, i can feel all the fat building up inside my arteries..but hey, i'm saving up for winter man.

TOP TEN THINGS JEREMY LAI HAS DONE IN THE PAST

1) Dropping his shoe off the jetty into the water
2) Failing his basic theory
3) Capsizing in his canoe when the coastguard went past
4) Getting beaten up by my Warrent officer in SISPEC
5) Buying a hideous sleeveless white velcro shirt, which could open up for fast action.
6) Having RJC girls running away, rather than to take a foto with him
7) Saying all the porn in his com was downloaded by his brother ( his brother moved out long ago go stay with his wife.
8) Posing topless infront of the webcam, flexing, and den posted the foto as a pic on his msn
9) Wearing white shorts with black underwear in canoeing, when he got wet, he was unable to leave the water
10) Falling off the treadmill in california fitness, den delievered to the ground infront of a bunch of girls

This day was a nice,slow and relaxing day for me. Really enjoyed myself, drove with my windows down with the cool evening breeze. Met jason,cass,selene,melvin at oreos for awhile den proceeded back to chel/ja/mish's (in no order of importance)house to watch dvds. As I predicted they wouldn't last the night, chelsea died first, ja den concussed and the remaining cat was actually the last one to sleep (she's usu the first). Well, that was that, packed up my dvd player and headed home.

It's really been a day of reflection and deep thought for me, cleared up my mind and felt enlightened. Should feel blessed i'm studying in a place where i still have frens and not alone in some god-forsaken place by myself. Reflection song of the day : RISE AND FALL

P.S, participated in some webcam action with narisa, i imitated jeremy lai's shameless topless foto on his msn. Although not quite with the same style, haha..As for Nari haha...she has seen me show some real life "comparisions!" (private joke)

chris/fantasizer

DARK DAY TURNS BRIGHTER

Today i went for class and i got back my assignment, it was pathetic. I put in so much effort and i got a really low mark for it. Totally spoiled my whole day, walked home and let out abit of steam. Slept for afew hours..woke up, still felt really grouchy. Realised I had to attend Mishi's birthday "surprise." The "suprise" is in inverted commas because i think the sly cat already realised something was up. Anyway, took a shower, grabbed my car keys and headed off to pick weikang up, then head to subiaco.

Driving along the highway, was caught in a peak hour jam. Didn't really help my mood much, travelling in a 3 lane highway at 50km/h when you are pissed off isn't the best way to release steam. Everytime i put my foot on the accelerator, it seemed like just 5 seconds before i had to stop again...arrrghh..boiling at this point.

Finally reached weikang's place, trying my best to hide my frustration. Friend's bday shd be a joyful occasion. Put on a brave front, proceeded to subi. Unfortunately, too much on my mind, took a wrong turn..and it took a longer time to reach. Upon reaching, realised that we were too early. Sat there and waited.....

Bday girl arrived when everyone was there, still didn't feel like talking much. But aiyah, why shd ppl suffer for my mood swing. Tried my best to behave normally, was a good meal. After that, went to Chel/Ja/Mish's house (not in any order of importance) and played abit of drinking games. Started to feel abit better. Left and went home, reached home, did abit of work and den started writing my blog because i couldn't work, too much on my mind. Hopefully, i get my act together this sem soon, if not, parents gonna start saying stuff.....now.....hungry...going to cook noodles.

Chris/fantasizer

Fond memories

Was running over some photos the other day, came across some of the pics from my canoeing nationals. I keep reminding myself those were like so many years ago, yet some of the memories are as clear as yesterday. We have Mun poh, who won a medal, although not as easily as i thot he would. We have jeremy lai, who was sabotaged by jinyuan on that fateful day, announcing on the loudspeakers to the rjc girls that jeremy would like to take a foto with them....of coz..they all ran away. And of coz, the rest of the team in various dumb ass shots.

I also realised how little army pics i had, i was never one for taking photos. Army is something i'd rather forget anyway, i hoped all the way from when i enlisted to the day i ord..that it would end sooner. Not that i suffered intolerably or anything, just that i hated the feeling of wasting time like that. oh well...

Talked to that girl at the gym again, ha she's damn sweet...forgot to bring her calculator for her mid sem exams. Thot i was quite funny until i realised i forgot to bring my pencil case during PSLE..Other than that i spent the day doing work, although it was my free day. Its like 11.36pm now..and i'm not sleepy. Thinking too much about home..sighz..

chris/fantasizer

It is the 4th of of May, I'm dead tired and I have alot of work due. Haven't been to church for quite some time, the last time i can remember going there was with jason tan and his family haha, which was awhile ago. Looking forward to returning to Singapore, i can't get enough of the food there, I've had enough of the food here. I can't believe I've started a blog, i guess i'm too bored.

Money is running out too, petrol is a killer and so is the food, so i have started on my milk and cornflakes for breakfast and lunch to save money. Was driving alongside a ford mustang today, the noise it made was amazing, sounded like it had bass boxes attached to it's exhaust, and when it accelerated it sounded like GOD..shouting..but i shall not bore the non car enthusiasts.

Two chio bu's birthdays are coming up, 6th and 9th of this month respectively, i only remembered because when u combine both, its 69. The last accomplice, the last chio bu of this particular house has her birthday way later, errr..nov something..who cares anyway..hahaha..okok its the 24th. I know that by labelling them chio bu's i will be spared buying them presents.

Finally spoke to this girl at the gym i found cute, found out she's older than me, but who cares anyway, actually this was last week but yah..haha. Now i have renewed incentive to go gym...

Chris/fantasizer