My Advice To A Better Life...

Ok, lets begin. I'm sure you've been in the position which someone has said some very unkind things about you. Even worse if what he/she has said is totally baseless. Well, people like this exist. So i guess you have to live with it. Rumors rumors rumors, hah, well, i guess i'm no stranger to rumors...I believe its partly due to the way i behave or my actions or whatever, doesn't really matter though. Well if its one thing in life i've learnt is that you can't control stuff like this. Sometimes you meet a person, wrong time, wrong place and you say something wrong. Suay suay, that person is going to hate you, despite you not doing anything to that person..this happens ALOT..

There are people who simply cannot accept the fact that a guy is perfectly capable of maintaining a platonic friendship with another girl (probably because they are unable to do it themselves ). What a sad sad sad life these people lead. This isn't really aimed at anyone specific, but you got to admit it does happen and i know afew ppl who are like that.

OOOOH well...here's the advice anyway, there are people you care about and people who care for you. These people should be enough for you to live your life with contentment and full of laughter. If you bother about every little thing  everyone says about you, you're going to lead a very miserable life...

So i say, apart from the people you care about....the rest of the world can kiss your ass...seriously...save yourself the trouble..

 
chris

Players, Playees....and the fish and bait game....

 
For some reason, everyone is talking about this, i think it started with dearest chels haha..
Ok here's my two cents..Personally, I think its a very sick game. Really really sick...i hate players, its like a cheap ego trip. Its really really dishonest and you have no idea how you could hurt someone..

I do agree that girls shouldn't be too easy, the way the world works...even if a girl is really interested in someone, she shouldn't leave herself open to hurt, by being so easy. It really really happens all the time.

Obviously, it feels good when you find out someone is interested in you, unless you find out the person is someone you really detest, (oh yes, that really happens too). I believe no matter how happy this thrills you, its good to be honest. Nvr give a straightforward ans if you're not sure, don't lead the person either...its def not right.

Ok..i think this is something everyone will agree on, I'm not a player. Principly because no one wants to play with me.. =(  Ok i admit, when i was younger i couldn't really deal with love and life very well, and i couldn't handle it very well either. But i guess i've grown up abit in this sense that i'm not so open to hurt anymore....

For me its like...if can, then can lor....if cannot den sua lohz....Abit like Robert Pires, got space dribble lor...no space pass lor....I hope that made sense. But i think this approach really puts up this defensive wall ard yourself..true, you might block off somethings you might have wanted to hear..but den again, you're not at risk of getting hurt =)

chris

I dunno what to write for this entry.....
 
And this spells trouble, cause when I have no idea what to write, I'll write bullshit...Anyway i write bullshit most of the time..You see its me, I'm christopher Lim, God made me unique in a way, that i'm full of shit. Thankfully i still have many friends who appriciate me, as a full of shit person. Ok this is wrong..i seem to have an obsession with shit.

Thanx to Mel goh and Mish, this sem I've been more in touch with God. I lost touch with him towards the end of my college days and he couldn't contact me during my army days.  Primarily because i couldn't wake up on Sunday mornings. Yeah but i miss my days as a praise and worship leader back in my church, a whole four years. Right now alot of ppl will be gasping and thinking..ohh man...HIM?? a praise and worship leader??? ha..yah i know, its unbelievable.

Well, i guess its about time i return to HIM..after my years in the wilderness. Its harder though, than i thought it would be to be re-acquainted with him. I know all this time HE has been there for me, although i haven't been there for him. But as they say, its never too late.

Ok, enough on this...lets get on with the happenings on my life..

I have a 3 day week, which is fortunate, monday, tues and thursday...it was the best combination of days i could get. I have no idea how to wake up for class though, its blardy freezing and before i can reach sch, i'm usually in cold-shock.

My car is still in damn good condition, sighz, looking at her, its so hard to believe she's ten years old..ppl still ask me if she's brand new. I love her to bits and I dread the day i have to sell her when i leave perth. Sighz....all the lancers i murdered on the highway...oops..shdn't be saying this, my mom reads my blog.

Okok..err what did i do today, went to support mish at her netball game =) . Ha, that tootface hasn't been feeling well all week...still go and play..but yah..was there to support since my sch hasn't started yet. Oh and a really really chio teammate of her's talked to me..haha..so unexpected. Quite happy for awhile.............yah i know, damn cheap thrill right..haha..but what do u expect from a guy who kills lancers and wakes up the neighbourhood coming home 2 am in the morning. Thats me, ultra bo liao...but for now..i feel i can do bo liao things and blame it on the brashness of my youth..

Which reminds me, i'm not exactly getting any younger......22 this year...my target of affording my first ferrari by 28 isn't that far away...Dont' get married NVM, don't have kids NVM...but i must own one of those in my lifetime...not with my lao pei's money of coz...I know everyone is shaking their heads now..but i have my reasoning for this....FIRST COMES the ferrari...den after the ferrari..naturally, a woman will follow, followed by many kids....haha maybe I'll have haf a few women bear me more kids....okok i'm joking ppl...thats not really me typing....

Watch the lancer pulling up beside you...continue going at 100km/h in fourth...as he looks over at you, slip it into neutral, rev the engine twice...slip it into third, dump the clutch and slam the accelerator, hear the valves of the VTEC opening...hear the music get drowned out by your engine..and see the lancer driver's face get smaller and smaller in your sideview mirror...Man, I am SUCH A KID!

BACK IN PERTH

Finally back in perth..the feeling is..well..rather dull. Haha everything is so dark and its so cold. It reminds me of when hell freezes over. But i guess fun is fun, but now its back to studying and i must get my focus back in line. The flight back was well....i can't remember..i was sleeping all the way..i only got woken up for lunch..after that i slept all the way until the plane landed

First day...i went to chels place for dinner..apart from the normal ppl there were some freshmen from my junior batch in cjc..hur hur..nice to see mish again. Later went to support her at her netball game. Wah, her team has like really improved alot..can tell mish's fitness drop abit..ha..but yeah they won by alot and it was totally deserved

The other 2 days after that, i've been cooped up in my room doing my own personal stuff. Suddenly feel so dead again, not so easy to pick up the fone and call someone out. Hur hur..no more jason and gang to play lan with...and no more nai nai to jio out for supper...sadness

Oh well..at least i have my honda crx back by my side..still as loud as ever when the vtec kicks in..actually its loud even in normal driving..haha. If u didn't know by now..my car's name is narisa, name after a certain thick skinned person who suggested the naming. The harder u push..the louder it gets..hahaha..oh no that sounds so wrong

 
chris

FAVOURITE PHRASES FROM MY FRIENDS
 
Jason- 1) Surely 2) LANNNN JIAO 3) Lai is a moron 4) fucked up 5) that small girl in the uniform damn chio 6) Alpha aurora damn powerful
 
Jeremy- 1) Aiiiiiyah 2) I'm on the way 3) I'll call you back (he never does) 4) Call me back (then he doesn't pick up) 5) I'm discussing some stuff 6) I need a woman! 7) Hands ups ! You're under arrest!
 
Jinyuan- 1) fuck it! 2) surely leh 3) lai is a moron 4) play games with jason need patience 5) OOOOOOH..ok loh you win you win 6) I tell you ah, that guy...one more time..i'm going to.....
 
Yixiong- 1) Surely leh 2) Lai is a moron 3) Everywhere is near balestier 4) No, no, you don't get my point, you see ah.....(den starts to ramble)
 
Chelsea- 1) Tootface 2) Get out of my house 3) what did you say? SAY AGAIN 4) surely 5) Lai is a moron 6) Nari's boobs damn nice, NAI NAI!! 7) I hate players (hur hur)
 
Mish- 1) Tootface 2) Eh, chris..i tell you ah... 3) Why do you smoke, Charles will nvr smoke(WTF!!) 4) *burp* 5) I want to sleep 6) Why you drive so slow? (for your information, i drive slowly cause my passengers always ask me to slow down) 7) Do you feel safe when i drive?
 
Narisa- 1) He/she's a moron lah! 2) Cannot take it 3) Wallau, disgusting la! 4) Boobs? ok lah, that one i got confidence( hur hur) 5) Wah so cute!! (in act cute voice) 6) Don't like that lah....
 
 
 
 

DOINGS

Yest I met Nari, Chels and Zhongyi for the movie MEAN GIRLS..wah i must say, the lead actress, her boobs damn nice. Even Nari cannot qie. After that, brought nai nai and chels to see my cats and my spare apartment, they agreed it was suitable to organise something, too bad have to wait until next hols to do anything

Today, I went for my ex-company mate's dads wake, was quite sad. At the same time, it was nice seeing all the familiar faces from my army days. Everyone has changed quite abit, all moved on with their lives..

After that, met nai nai, chels, mark koh, norman and mark koh's fren (forgot his name) at siglap for some cheesecake..which was damn good lah..and we had this discussion and this person's name kept coming up..hur hur..shall not say who..

After that, grabbed a quick supper and i proceeded to send those two tootfaces home.

Damn sad, this holidays ending so soon, but its ok..i guess i've done everything I've needed to do..

Too bad nai nai not coming back to perth with us..now we have to wash our own dishes..

chris

New car on the way...my dad is mad

Yesterday, I went with my dad to the mercedes showroom to see the new SLK. The one with the longish nose. I really loved cars so i made it a point to go down with him although i kinda had other plans..After some discussion, my Dad said he wanted to buy an SL500.

Walked over and took a look at the price brochure and there it was...the price...around 450,000..I cóuldn't believe it..blardy expensive..HA..If he buys it..and I drive it..there are certain social reckonings I will have to endure..for example..i WILL be labelled a spoilt brat..haha..

Thought about when i graduate and i start working, how I'm going to afford all the things i want in life. Did some calculations and yes, its very bleak man. Both my parents are pretty successful in life...SO WHY THEIR SON SO CANNOT MAKE IT?? arghh....
Yes its pretty cool to drive nice cars..but I guess the ultimate satisfaction is to drive something you bought with your own money. So i guess if I bought a corolla with my own money and i drove it, it would give me the MOST satisfaction..sighz..

Hmmm, what I want in life..thats a pretty tough question.

I always thought buying a ferrari and a nice place in bukit timah would top my list of priorities..I know..it sounds impossible..but I can dream can't I?? I guess now my views have changed..no amount of flashy cars or nice houses can give you true happiness...whats the point of all this without someone to share it with...

What i would really like in life...

Is someone who would enjoy the simple things in life with me, someone who would consider other people before herself, so that i would always feel safe, that she considered my feelings before doing anything. Someone kind, understanding and with a good simple heart. Though it sounds so simple, a person like this is so hard to find......

and when i do...i know i can never win her heart with a car or a house..or cash..

all I'll have is myself...

Chris

DEEP REFLECTIVE DAY

I stayed home most of the day today, only going out in the evening to meet my canoeing buds to play some games and have supper at newton...Before that, I stayed at home, went tanning by the pool and went for a swim.

Actually today, i sat around and did some thinking.

I know now, what I have done, and what i have chosen to do..

is the right thing to do..and in that..

I take comfort, that i have learnt my own lessons from the past..

taken them into consideration...

before deciding what I have to do in the future..

doing the right thing isn't always easy..

but no one said it was ever going to be..

God give me strength..


chris

THINGS I HEAR EVERYDAY..

1) Wah sibei chio/yandao

2) Nabei

3) Chee Bye

4) Fuck/Fucker/Fucking/Fucked up

5) Sian

6) Tootface (this is from a collection of ppl)

7) Drive carefully ( my mom)

8) Wah lau/ Wah kaoz/ Wah piang

9) LAH

10) MEOW (my cats)

Its been a good holiday....

This has been a great holiday for me, in many ways, much better than my last one back in S'pore. For one, I've been hanging out with my closer friends, they may not be as happening as some of my other social friends, but i know i can depend on them when the time comes. Its heart-warming to know that, although we're all split up, we can all get back together and re-think old times.

Special Thanx to..

My canoeing buddies..Jeremy, Jason, Jinyuan and Yixiong. We've been close for the longest time already. Looking over the canoeing pictures reminds me of all the good times we've been through together. It was a memorable and unforgettable experience. I wish we all could relive that experience all over again. Looking at the prom photos also shows how much we've grown up since 4 years ago. I believe 20 years down the road, we'll still be the best of friends.

Chels, Ja, Mish and Eelis..I've only really hung out with you guys for only one sem. But you gals made my life so much better in Perth. You gals were undoubtedly the highlight of my life for the past few months..even more so than my car..yes...that big a highlight. Ard some girls, I know i have to watch my mouth, but i can talk to you guys with alot of honesty which is duly appriciated..and i know you gals will still love me..........right????

Narisa..Surprise package. Arrived in Perth with a rather infamous repuation, haha. But then again, if we're gonna talk about infamous reputations, i might as well talk about myself. We instantly clicked like we've been friends for years. Its very re-assuring that someone actually shares so much in common with myself, when it comes to views on life and love. Talking to you is like talking to a guy, your skin is so thick..its not all bad, infact its really rather good...that way I'll always be myself around you.

Mish...my soccer buddy..The only one i didn't really know before stepping into your house. Since you arrived in Singapore earlier than the rest..We've hung out abit..esp during the EURO..you're really funny..you burp, drink beer, watch soccer and play soccer! Like quite MAN..but den again, I've seen the female side of you..which is good..a balance. It still seems there is much more to find out..you have a good heart and your company has been fun.

Tanya...my dearest xiaomei..I miss you so much. Since you left for the US to study, our contact has been minimal. 3 years have flown by and now you're going from chicago to california to do your masters. I only get to see you like once a year, which is crap. But i know that you won't forget me cause you're one of the most kind hearted people I've met. TAKE CARE!!!!

My darling narisa (my honda crx in perth, Narisa forced me to name my car after her)...You're about ten years old but you've been a great gal. I like your curves, your looks, the way your engine sounds and the good times we've had together. When i demand the most from you, at 7500rpm, the noise you make is truely orgasm-inducing, better than real sex! People always say you're selfish because you only have two seats, but what do they know...you're my pride and joy!! (note: i'm talking about my car..not the real narisa)

There are still alot of people i have yet to mention but these are the people( and one car) that have been prominent in recent times..if i didn't mention you, it doesn't mean i don't appriciate you.

Right people..take care..

chris

ONE MORE DAY TO THE FINAL!!

Its like one more day to the final of euro 2004! portugal vs greece..i tip greece to win it.

Ok, hmm, what did I do today. Oh yes, I went canoeing today! Early in the morning, i woke up and picked up yixiong and i arrived a full hour earlier that those two arses jeremy lai and jason lim, the perpetual latecomers. Rowed afew laps and got a nice tan..hehe..on the way to kallang, even saw mark koh driving his white estima.

I took an afternoon nap because i really didn't sleep enough and later met jason, yixiong and jinyuan for some lan games. I think i really did quite well. Jason once again proved, he can't win a game if he doesn't camp. He was so proud he beat me, but actually the real reason he won is cause my ally got disconnected (jinyuan).

After that was supposed to meet my fren for supper, but he couldn't make it due to unforseen circumstances, so i met narisa, and we drove all the way to bedok to join mish and charles for supper. Along the way, got blardy lost lah. Yes, Narisa claims its cause she's too distracting..the real reason is cause i don't go bedok at all...

After a good meal and a nice chat. We drove back. And can u believe it? we got lost!! again!! had so much blardy trouble finding the ECP, had to stop and ask a cab driver. sighz..

I shall not say what kind of book i found in narisa's possesion..hahahaha..she's a tootface

chris

BORING DAY..

Today i did absolutely nothing! Last nite met afew ppl for supper, including that thick skinned cow narisa..haha. Then went HV..den i went to catch the match with mish. She's damn sad that greece knocked out czceh rep..i admit.. i was pretty shocked too. I always thought I'd be old and having trouble going to the toilet before greece made a major final. I guess weird stuff does happen.

Anyway back to today, i went downstairs. Played abit of pool.Chit chat abit with some of my neighbours...feel so lethagic man..i dunno why.

Later going dinner at bugis...

yes..and today, mish msg me that she knocked her head against a pole...yes people..it is confirmed..she is a tootface.

chris